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Why Are You Here?

I have been interested in true crime for a long time. I think I have always had a what makes people tick type attitude.
I also was a victim of a guy who went on after letting me walk away to kill a few other "working" ladies. Long ago ghosts maybe??
Still trying to determine just what makes people tick? Still trying to determine why I made it out alive??
Who knows?
Maybe it is just because it never ceases to amaze me how many fruit cakes are out here and I want to know why it seems the numbers are growing?

Actually I have decided to as a old lady to go back to college (yes finally) and take classes in social work Sociology Thought of doing the criminal justice thing but due to injuries gotten a while back by an abusive ex well I would never be able to run or anything else if someone came after me LOL

So there is a small glimpse into my life.
You should read the full version when I learn to write (plan to take a side class on that too) and do the book. It is a going to be a best seller.:D
Seriously I have always wanted to do a book sort of this is what you get if you take the wrong path type thing. I try to share what I have been through with others who are headed but have not made the cross over yet in hopes they will not cross over. I also belong to several support groups for domestic abuse. I am determined to not have lived through all that for nothing.
Maybe reading here helps me see I am not alone in what I have gone through.
Who knows I have read at many places though and I come HERE as in HERE at DD because I love the fun and laughs and no one here takes it so seriously that they can not interject some laughs. It is a place we can share opinions and no one will bash the hell out of you for them.
 
I'm a SAHM

I have always liked true crime and so has my husband. I think having kids has made me more aware of crime in general but definatly has made me more aware of crime against children/babies. Knowledge of what others are capable of is the best defence, well that and a few other things, IMO. I also have a psychology and criminal justice duel major degree.
 
I found this site when I googled one of my former... er... flings...... was charged with Criminal Child Abuse and Inflicting Great Bodily Harm on a Child... I was devestated. The information I have on the case is limited, so while trying to find out more I stumbled upon this site. I initially was shunned and ridiculed, which was fun, let me tell ya; but due to my inability to keep my mouth shut... and everyone else's compassion, here I am. I work in an engineering firm and am on the cpu 90% of the time. I found the women here refreshing... so you can pretty much count on seeing my name around a lot.

I have always preferred to talk about the weird, bizzarre, and twisted aspects of the human psyche... I like to dissect and overanalyze practically everyone and everything. I have read true crime since I was in high school.

Oh, and I have a beautiful, darling, baby boy, he's 13 mo. old.
 
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It's mostly a true crime thing for me. Although the book 83 Hours till Dawn scared the SHIT out of me when I was a little girl, that type of story has always stuck with me. I've read most of the Crime Library online and I routinely look up serial killers and specific cases and stuff like that. Hell, I re-read the Crime Library on occasion! Just a few hours ago I downloaded the Lake/Ng torture video...so yeah, big interest in true crime here.

I've actually been lurking on DD for a VERY long time, it wasn't until recently that I got a forums account. I still haven't commented on any front page stories. I think my favorite thing about DD is the child stories. DD presents them very often, and it's heart warming to know that SOMEONE is tracking these stories, SOMEONE cares about these children, even if their rapist/killer/family didn't. Well, maybe heart warming is the wrong word, but you get the point.

Something interesting about my interest in DD and true crime in general is that it flies in the face of my most important belief. Anne Frank phrased it well: "In spite of everything, I still believe that people are truly good at heart." I am a strong believer in finding the good in everyone. And yet so often, the people featured on DD seem to be truly evil. Yet my belief has not wavered.

edit: Forgive the bump; I blame Morbid because he linked to this thread from the recent Chrystal front page story.
 
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A lifelong true crime fanatic and death hag!

I've been fascinated and obsessed with true crime since I was 12 (now 37!). Read every book I could find, which back then in 1983/'84 wasn't that much! :( And no plethora of TV shows, reality crime stuff or CourtTV! But nonethless there I was digging up whatever I could find on it.

I was also strangely and very strongly drawn to stories and mysteries of peoples deaths. How, why, when....the location. Celebrities but normal folk as well. When I moved to Los Angeles I had a FUN time hunting down all the murder, suicide and the like sites of dead stars (mostly older classic Hollywood types!) around the whole LA area. Something about being AT the actual location. I always felt vaguely ashamed about my uncanny fascination and never shared it with others much. I never knew there were so many like me and I wasn't maybe a complete freak. Come to find I'm just a death hag :heh:

So yea, but as much as I love reading and immersing myself with the stories and drama of it all......I'm here at the site and actually joining and posting because I'm lonely at this juncture in my life. And others here probably have very similar interests! New friends are always awesome!

I thought maybe I shouldn't admit to being "lonely" *gasp*.....such a horrible confession, but in our isolated lives, I'm sure I'm not the only one!
 
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I never really posted why I was here either, even though I've been here for a long time. I did an introduction, but honestly it barely scratched the surface of the WHY behind my madness. ;P

I've a few reasons, other than my children. Here's some, I guess.

- My best friend named Matt died in a car crash my sophmore year. He was the perfect person. Religious, nice, full of morals, and treated everyone like they were related to him. It has always hit me hard. I never understand the "why" of it until I was much older. Apparently he was driving his fiance (he was a senior) home from a movie date, and an illegal drove him off the road. Then shot him.

When we were told, I got a phone call from his mother and she was crying hysterically. Nothing has ever hit me as hard as that has. It turned out later that the illegal was running from the cops (he was caught selling coke to an undercover cop) and lost control of his car in the weather (it was raining really badly). When he was asked to exchange information, the illegal shot him in the head. The girlfriend had been thrown from the car, and later recounted the details.

What did the guy get from shooting my closest friend? 4 years. You heard me right. FOUR years. He was deported to Peru after he served his sentence, and is most likely back in Jersey now.

- My father was one of those "baby beaters". Not towards anyone in my family except me. My sibblings are just fine. It started the first day my mom went back to work (she stopped working after this) when I was 2 months old and collicy, and didn't end until they got divorced. I always wondered why me. Now I understand because of this website it's not me, it's HIM.

- My mother is a keen narcissist. I did a lot of research on it after I got married. The day I signed up on the website was another one of our many manipulative arguments that left me going "What the fuck is her problem?!". On the particular day that I personally found the website, I was drowning myself in the news to basically make myself fell better.

Usually it starts out like this: She calls, starts in on how she's worried about so-and-so in the family (usually it's my sibblings and she wants help with them again - prolly to lend money), then it goes onto how she's a terrible mother (the woe is me complex), and then she starts being a total psycho bitch where she berates me and basically tells me I'm worthless...which now I've finally gotten the nerve to hang up on her. Hubby and I currently haven't spoken to her since the birth of Peyton due to her shit.

I was drawn to the site during one of my news binges because someone had mentioned a certain case and the offender as being narcissistic. At the time I was googling narcissism, like I usually do, and this site came up as having briefly mentioned the word about some mother of a baby beater. I was hooked instantly.

- Morbid, Pooh, Athena, and a bunch of others are the reason why I have stayed. The Modesto case, where the people were standing there watching a child die before their eyes was enough to keep me. (http://www.dreamindemon.com/2008/06/16/modesto-police-officer-does-world-a-favor/#more-1081) This hit close to home. Thinking that someone could so callously watch a child die, really hit hard. It's the first bit of news that I ever really got emotionally involved in.

- Athena's debating as well has helped me stay. I'm a HUGE debator with my husband. Ask him, I usually wind up debating with myself after I read some news and go ape shit about it to him. Drives him up a wall. The Three Things section is my home away from home.

I can write my own opinions about things without having them shot down as being "dumb". Whereas in real life, I cannot even offer the smallest opinion about the color purple. So in an effort NOT to stiffle my own urge to argue, or yell about injustices, this is a home away from home for me.

- Andrea Yates and a few other things from the news have seriously driven me to want to know more. I've always been interested in crime and how the inner workings go. In college I took a few classes and even considered becoming a prosecutor against rapists. I have this sick fascination with wanting to see rapists in particular in jail.

- My children weren't really the reason I became interested in crime. They are the reason I continue to keep up to date on it though. Pedophiles and baby beaters alike are very hard to "figure out". Knowing how they tick, or rather what they use to draw in kids, is a good way to protect them.

I knew letting my children talk to strangers was a bad idea. I had previously marked on a local map where all the local pedophiles are and memorized their names. However, I never knew to the extent just HOW dangerous and UNRARE it is. The media and even my folks acted like it was a really rare occurance. It is NOT.

- Also as many others have said...some of these stories are a good way for me to realize that I'm doing a GOOD job raising my kids. When I see some of these mothers defending their penises, I get infuriated. I LIVED like that, I HATE seeing people defend these assholes. So it's MY way of throwing stones at the complete utter wastes of flesh.

Also it was very hard getting pregnant the first time. We were actually told I'd never have kids, due to a prior medical problem. When our first was born, I could never have imagined doing anything like these assholes do to their kids. She was just too adorable (now she's a monster), and for her benefit as well as my own, I throw stones left and right...and I LIKE it. LOL
 
Why am I here?

I am as spontaneous as a snail.

In the 70's the Vietnam conflict and protests were at its zenith.
My dad came back from his second tour in 1969 and we re-located to Ft. Bragg.

My dad would have to be away from us for two weeks every month for maneuvers at Ft Bragg. (Ft Bragg was much smaller at the time.)
The artillery shells could be heard non-stop 24 hrs a day. The shells would shudder through the house making the pictures bang against the wall.

We lived on base in Ft Bragg, NC not far from Jeffrey MacDonald and his family lived and was murdered by him.
MacDonald Story

I remember my mom cutting out the newspaper article and keeping it under her jewelry box. There was a picture, in the article, of a room that had a child’s rocking horse. (The one with springs that attached to the frame.)
It was the constant talk of where I lived.
In return, it was a constant fear for me and my older sister, when dad had to leave on maneuvers.
I was of the age where the easiest word to say was the hardest to answer.
Why?
Why did a bad person, the kill the children?
Why do you have to leave for the base again?
Why doesn’t the noise stop?

In 1979, when the trial began in Raleigh NC, we were in NY.
Jeffrey MacDonald was denied parole in 2005.

I guess, I am still searching for “Why?â€￾
 
I'm here because I'm weird. I was a voracious reader when I was a youngster. I would read shampoo bottles, Jehovah's Witness magazines (while my mom screamed that I would be brainwashed if I read them), all the magazines and newspapers and books in our house. My parents weren't really readers at all so this was slim, near to none.

Once I read through the 1965 to 1976 Reader's Digest condensed books I had to have more. My father inherited or bought a flea market, the details are sketchy, the Time Life Set on Crime and Punishment. I think there were four or five of these thick books....It ranged from Edie Amin, the Marquis de Sade, Hitler, Nero, John Wilkes Booth, the Lindbergh baby...I mean this shit had it all. I was hooked. I read and re-read them over and over. My grandmother told me I should be reading Sweet Valley High or Mistral's Daughter for God's sake. I shook my head and went about my way. Licking my lips and dreaming about that haunting picture of Mary Sarratt and company hanging in the breeze after execution. I swear I must have looked like Cindy Brady and Wednesday Addams had a baby...

Then fast forward fifteen years and shows like American Justice, with the dreamy Bill Curtis, The New Detectives, etc...came around and I was gone again. My husband says I'm like a heroin addict getting a fix.....He even mocks popping his veins as I tune in with the remote. When Investigation Discovery started up I felt like I had fucking won the lottery......I'm still in heaven. I'm so gonna have a crush on the old dude from Most Evil...

But the main reason is because I have beautiful children of my own and I cannot imagine hurting, neglecting, abusing any of them. I read this shtuff on here to not feel so bad about myself and my parenting, to be appalled and to hope, pray and cry to God for an answer. Maybe I missed my calling and I need to be an advocate for children's rights.

A set of Time Life books, a thirst for any kind of knowledge set me up to be weird and morbid and love this fucking site!!!! Having children of my own and loving them as I do keeps me coming back, everyday........
 
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Reader's Digest condensed books
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I love those!!

I've an interest in these sorts of stories because I'd very much so like to know 'why' people do the things they do..

However, I found the site after I learned that my daughter's boyfriend has a sister 'in' for some pretty vicious stuff, and I wanted to see if he was telling me the truth. (Sadly, he was.)

I became hooked by the way everyone openly stated what was on their minds, not just sugar-coated bullshit. I appreciate and have a fondness for in-your-face bluntness, which the 'Demon has in abundance!
I think that's about it...

OH! I'm addicted to that damn chatbox too. :ranger:
 
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I was a sick kid reading about serial killers, shootings, and you know all the fairy tales. All the time wondering why? Why do people kill each other? What gives someone the privilage to think they have the right to take another life? Is there something that can be detected in someone that can foretel someone becoming a murderer? I came specifically to this site because I hate bullshit. Im not gonna feel sorry for a mother that left her kid in a car, or a mother whos daughter was raped by her live in boyfriend. The child can never be brought back to life and that little girl will never get her innocence back so why should I feel sorry for the mother that had a hand in the accurance of the crime? I guess deep down I'm a mean little fucker and I want people held accountable for their actions, and yeah I'm a mom too.
 
Well, i don't really know how i found this site but i remember reading about a drunk driver who killed an entire family in there minivan on the way home. Just reading one of the comments, i'm sorry for whoever said this and not remembering the screen name, 'i just want to strip down to my sexi undies, tie my t-shirt around my neck like a cape, make the fake flying noises and repeatedly curb stomp the bastard while making those batman sound effects'. Every day in tech i came back, and never left since.

I haven't always been interested in true crime but more the psychology behind it. How can someone even think of this? How can they even act on this kind of impulse? What the fuck is wrong with them?

i'm the kid whose friends came to him when they had problems, for some reason i could answer their questions and see every side to the argument. This would be more of a stretch but i see it as a challenge, something long a waited, and i know a few good torture techniques if people want to talk:crazy:
 
My true crime fascination precedes my 22 and 10 yr old daughters. Always read lots of non-fiction (but also the Jehovas Magazines & R.D. Condensed Books lol) and preferred "reality" tv - b4 Survivor even. Fatal Vision hooked me and the internet made the hobby ez'ier. I'd read the DD Front Pages lots of times in my cyber-travels but was p.c. illiterate to save. Managed this feat at the beginning of the Caylee Case and discovered the Forums have everything that the 4-5 other sites I frequent BUT enjoy the wicked ass humor here so much better!

PLUS the MySpace stuff cracks me all the way up.:rofl2:
 
Dopie said:
. . . Then fast forward fifteen years and shows like American Justice, with the dreamy Bill Curtis, The New Detectives, etc...came around and I was gone again. My husband says I'm like a heroin addict getting a fix.....He even mocks popping his veins as I tune in with the remote. When Investigation Discovery started up I felt like I had fucking won the lottery......I'm still in heaven. I'm so gonna have a crush on the old dude from Most Evil...

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Forgot to say how I :rofl2: on the "dreamy Bill Curtis" comment here . . . and to say I ALREADY have been crushing on Dr. MICHAEL STONE from Most Evil!:whoo:

Should also add that I was periphally involved in a true crime case that happened in my late 20's (now 47 & holding) - Stacy Lannert - murdered her Dad and got sentenced to Life W/o Parole here in MO? Claims sexual abuse now and trains dogs.

Total cold blooded psycho-sociopath - but quite a few fall for her story now.
 
I stumbled upon this site while doing research on the little Pomery girl whos step monster almost killed her. Im a history nerd at heart and the most bruital of crimes have always caught my attention. Serial killers in particlar. I want to know why, what makes them tick. How does their brain work? The first serial killer I ever researched on my own was Ed Gein. I was hooked from there on.

I do have children ( five to be exact ) gave birth to my first child when I was twenty. Aquired three more when I got married. Then had my son. The stories about child abuse hits home for me. I grew up in a home where I was beat by my mother almost on a daily basis a few times a day. My mother was smart about it and usally hid my bruises. She would also with hold food and water as a punishment as well keeping me held up in my room after being beaten. When I was eight she lost it over a note from my teacher saying I was talking in class. She beat me with my fathers belt. I remember screaming out for help. She didnt stop until I kicked her in the stomach. I had welts all over my body including my face. My teacher noticed and the school called social services. I had to have pictures taken of my entire body. It was embarrasing having to lift my shirt up and pull down my pants for complete strangers. Sadly social services did nothing but tell my mother to throw the belt away and get therapy for all of us. Therapy turned into the blame game agaisnt me. We went to one session where they did nothing but yell at me and I sat in my chair and cried. The physical abuse finnaly stopped after I punched my mother in the mouth when I was about fifteen for her punching me in mine. The emotional abuse never stopped. I finnaly had to cut all ties with both of my parents over my mother over four years ago. Thankfully I was one of the lucky ones who went on to not only survive the abuse but to break the cycle as well. When I found I was having issues with my anger and depression I did something about it. Never once did I take it out on my kids. May 2006 I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 with rapid cycling and occasional psychosis. I am here for the little ones as well as the intrest in true crimes. Im a huge childrens rights advocate. I will never stop fighting for the rights of children as long as I live. I would become a foster parent but because of the Bipolar that is not an option for me. Its sad really cause im a good mom.
 
I'm here because when I was pregnant with my first child (I have 6) I read the most horrific story about a two year named Sally Ann who had been kidnapped right out of her aunts front yard. They found her body two days later.

She had been brutally raped, it had broke all her pelvic bones. And the killer had killed her pinching her to death with a pair of pliers. It made sick, horrified and shocked because I had never in my life until that point heard of anyone hurting a child.

It made me the over protective Mama grizzly bear that I am. Since then, i've been obsessed with crimes that include children and wanting to try to save everyone of them. I can't even be sure who it was I googled but this site popped up so I started reading and with in a few days had signed up.

Morbid and Imp's honesty and writing surpass most of what else is out there on the net. Not to forget Ruby, So Jaded, Lizard and the others that are awesome in their own right.

I have made so many friends here. Some wonderful friends that are now my friend in real life. And i'm very greatful for that.
 
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I have one child-he's 5- but I joined this site because of my desire to read and share common interests,

Love true crime, investigation processes, forensics, and yes, those things my husband would call "ghoulish"!

Hey! what's wrong with being fascinated by the stages of decomposition??

Anyone, Anyone???:noidea:
 
Well, it was just before Christmas in 2006. I was really drunk. And I signed up at www.bloody-disgusting.com/forums and spammed the music section with articles from Wikipedia, where I received an infraction from Count Dragula (the guy is so poetic with his words). Then Morbid threatened my life, so I joined The Dreamin' Demon. He then changed his site all around and boom...it was reborn in April '07!

That's about it. :becky:
 
I just spent the past 10 minutes writing up an utterly witty and fascinating response to this question then my net froze and swallowed the whole lot in cyber-darkness. A pain in the ass second only to the blue screen of death.

Short answer?

I'm a tom-boy, a toughie/right fighter at heart, and the president of the overprotective parents club (just ask any of my four) also mesmerized by all things medical and unfathomable.

I'd like to understand why these SOB's do the things they do moreover I'd love to beat the holy shit out of them.

Lastly and not least, in truth, it's the people. It's the D'D folks that keep me coming back I love the way they write and express themselves. Down to earth, not over the top PC and funny as hell.

Thanks for askin'
 
looking for a missing kiddo

Im a social worker looking for a missing kid, she is listed in the missing section. I just need to know she is okay and alive.
 
I'm here because I love true crime, morbidity, and the dark side of the world which I only prefer to be involved with by reading and studying.
I don't really want to touch or smell a dead body, I just want to see a pic and read about it.

Its a good way to be involved in depravity and stay out of jail.

It started when I was young, I read amittyville horror like Morbid and scared the shit out of myself. Red pig eyes in the window. I have never had that same scary rush since. Ive tried, but it takes more and more. I think that's how serial killers get going.
 
I found the dreamindemon after searching for additional information on the Benjamin Sargent case. The beautiful child that was raised by monsters until his 5th month of life then allowed to die a terrible, grueling death. So I guess you can say death brought me to dreamindemon.

True crime has always been a fascination and curiosity for me. I have always had a natural...hmm, some might say, an unnatural curiosity about the dark and sinister behaviors I see committed by fellow humans. As a child I would rather watch, "Tales from the Darkside", "Night Gallery", "Twilight Zone" than some Disney movie. Later I really got into true crime shows and books, anything to do with murder and mayhem and the details involving the cases...I was drawn in like a magnet.
Today I watch a lot of True Crime TV shows and Dr. G, CSI's, Criminal Minds....etc.

The cases that really, really bother me most are those regarding the death of a child.
I just don't handle that kind of thing well, hard for me to process violence towards children ...immediately I want the bastard(s) to die for hurting or killing an innocent.
I believe with all my heart children are the "light of life". They are treasures and gifts...and though, occasionally, my own make me want to take up drinking and smoking two things I don't do very well...(damn, and I love mexican martini's so), I love them with all my soul.

Seriously, I adore my children and will kill any bastard that brings harm to them. So, it was a child case that brought me here and those that continues to draw me in. I feel strongly about remembering the victim, especially in cases where the victim is a helpless, innocent child. Admittedly I have those days after readings something so incredibly dark that I just say, no more, not again...I won't go back. But the truth is you can't go anywhere without hearing or reading about something terrible that has happened to a child. So then I return. At least here my my outrage, my utter and complete disillusion for humanity is not censored. I can vent and curse and holler and not be judged simply because my torment runs deep.

I have a mixed bag of emotions, I "feel too much" sometimes, with love and anguish then there are times I find the need to draw my sword, (Orchid Katana Samurai Sword...don't ask how I won it), and just kill all the fucking bastards....

I do consider myself a deeply spiritual person with a side that despairs too much at times. But at the end all that matters to me is that I make a difference somehow, even in the smallest way. Be it a baby that didn't have a name when killed, a child gone missing and forgotten or the girl who's life went all so wrong to find herself dying in a dark ditch alone. I want to remember the names, the faces, not so much the manner of death but the life they should have had or the life they left all too soon.

Besides I'm a fucking addict now....oh, and yes, I'm a stay-home-mama, (past 5 yrs.), and never seem to have enough time on my hands but the time I sneak in for myself you can bet my Katana sword, you can usually find me on the dreamindemon and I make no excuses or apologies for that.
 
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Peeperann said:
I'm here because when I was pregnant with my first child (I have 6) I read the most horrific story about a two year named Sally Ann who had been kidnapped right out of her aunts front yard. They found her body two days later.

She had been brutally raped, it had broke all her pelvic bones. And the killer had killed her pinching her to death with a pair of pliers. It made sick, horrified and shocked because I had never in my life until that point heard of anyone hurting a child.
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You know he also peeled her skin off while she was alive with those same pliers.......

Decided to bump the thread. I've been interested in true crime since I was, oh, maybe 7. I loved to read. Got a book that listed many different crimes like Lizzy Gordon, The Black Dahlia, and that mob dude, I think his name was Hoffa...checked out books, read more about those crimes. I have loved the news since I was that age also because I liked being informed on what was going on in my world, even if I wasn't considered "part" of it at the time.

I found this site when the Caylee Anthony thing came out.... after that, I was a lurker for a while, then I was reading past stories because you guys couldn't dish out the articles fast enough...found the What Happened to Meghan Landowski?, and signed up that very day....the reason I did that was because I wanted to tell the world that the guy who committed the crime was arrested. I have been here ever since.

I love to bash tards, as Zibarro likes to call them, because they don't care what crime their family member has committed. In their eyes, that said person will always be like God. Public shaming at it's finest.

That being said, I feel very welcomed on the site. Not many people may agree with me, but that's okay. No one is going to agree with you all of the time. Well, thanks for listening!!!
 
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