alifinrox
Empath, attention whore
I was listening to 'the seven tongues of god' by nevermore, my favorite band ever, and the last line of the song said 'to see the light is the purest form of reward' and i just started bawling my cute little head off.
I have never loved a band on such a deep level. I fell in love with their song c.b.f. off their first album and it was on just based off jeff Loomis' guitar and warrel Danes astronomically killer vocals from then. Although the whole band is equally sick.
But what i loved about nevermore the most was that their lyrics, while opposed to organized religion like i always was, still beautifully and powerfully conveyed so much about the shitty state of our modern world, yet also the need of humans to let go of ego. He talked about the conundrum of A.i., didn't speak as if God exists yet asks God directly in other songs why he made us this way then abandoned us. All things that hit a nerve in my soul. He stood up for innocent children against abortion in his lyrics, was very anti heroin and showed a desire to know the answers to all these existential questions ive asked all my life. I thought it was awesome that he had the balls to ask the questions and take positions that many others esp in the metal community would be shunned for asking or taking.
A few years after i was introduced to their music, i was listening to literally nothing else. My own voice got so much better singing to with warrel dane. He was classically trained in opera and had a crazy vocal range. Right up there with king diamond, bruce dickinson and rob halford. Around this time i was sick with a staph infection in my blood and was home from beauty school for weeks with nothing to do but go down a youtube rabbit hole that started with FEMA camps, depopulation movements, chemtrails and gmos and ended with ai, morgellons disease and transhumanism. I call this my awakening. I was highly traumatized. I could barely eat i slept maybe 3 hours every week or two, and i cried at the drop of a hat all day everyday. I took no pleasure in anything anymore- weed, doing hair, shopping, nothing. This lasted months. So having already believed in the healing power of the earth, in karma, justice, love, the law of attraction and a place where I'll be with my loved ones again after i die, and being so traumatized, i started praying and opening my mind more to God.
I wouldn't call warrel dane a man of God though but a seeker of truth. He believed we were in our final days and basically i took it upon myself to see if i could maybe meet him and at least have a good existential conversation and at most maybe save his soul. I felt very strongly that at least i should send him a letter or something.
I had an opportunity to go to a meet and greet for his first solo album but the ticket was as much as this mini digi recorder i wanted at the hawk shop, and i only had the money to buy one of the two. So i very reluctantly made the decision to invest in making my own music instead of supporting someone elses. A few years later warrel was in brazil working on his 2nd solo album called shadow work which was teased as being very dark. In one song on the album called madame satan he sings in the chorus that he wants Satan to kill him in his sleep. Shortly after that song was completed he died in his sleep of a heart issue.
When i heard this i was inconsolable for days. Crying so hard i would puke, snotting my whole face up. i spent the first day i found out just saying no no no it can't be not him! I could have saved him somehow!! Fuck!!!
So when i heard that line today, 'to see the light is the purest form of reward', i just said, i hope you saw the light warrel. I hope you're ok.
I have never loved a band on such a deep level. I fell in love with their song c.b.f. off their first album and it was on just based off jeff Loomis' guitar and warrel Danes astronomically killer vocals from then. Although the whole band is equally sick.
But what i loved about nevermore the most was that their lyrics, while opposed to organized religion like i always was, still beautifully and powerfully conveyed so much about the shitty state of our modern world, yet also the need of humans to let go of ego. He talked about the conundrum of A.i., didn't speak as if God exists yet asks God directly in other songs why he made us this way then abandoned us. All things that hit a nerve in my soul. He stood up for innocent children against abortion in his lyrics, was very anti heroin and showed a desire to know the answers to all these existential questions ive asked all my life. I thought it was awesome that he had the balls to ask the questions and take positions that many others esp in the metal community would be shunned for asking or taking.
A few years after i was introduced to their music, i was listening to literally nothing else. My own voice got so much better singing to with warrel dane. He was classically trained in opera and had a crazy vocal range. Right up there with king diamond, bruce dickinson and rob halford. Around this time i was sick with a staph infection in my blood and was home from beauty school for weeks with nothing to do but go down a youtube rabbit hole that started with FEMA camps, depopulation movements, chemtrails and gmos and ended with ai, morgellons disease and transhumanism. I call this my awakening. I was highly traumatized. I could barely eat i slept maybe 3 hours every week or two, and i cried at the drop of a hat all day everyday. I took no pleasure in anything anymore- weed, doing hair, shopping, nothing. This lasted months. So having already believed in the healing power of the earth, in karma, justice, love, the law of attraction and a place where I'll be with my loved ones again after i die, and being so traumatized, i started praying and opening my mind more to God.
I wouldn't call warrel dane a man of God though but a seeker of truth. He believed we were in our final days and basically i took it upon myself to see if i could maybe meet him and at least have a good existential conversation and at most maybe save his soul. I felt very strongly that at least i should send him a letter or something.
I had an opportunity to go to a meet and greet for his first solo album but the ticket was as much as this mini digi recorder i wanted at the hawk shop, and i only had the money to buy one of the two. So i very reluctantly made the decision to invest in making my own music instead of supporting someone elses. A few years later warrel was in brazil working on his 2nd solo album called shadow work which was teased as being very dark. In one song on the album called madame satan he sings in the chorus that he wants Satan to kill him in his sleep. Shortly after that song was completed he died in his sleep of a heart issue.
When i heard this i was inconsolable for days. Crying so hard i would puke, snotting my whole face up. i spent the first day i found out just saying no no no it can't be not him! I could have saved him somehow!! Fuck!!!
So when i heard that line today, 'to see the light is the purest form of reward', i just said, i hope you saw the light warrel. I hope you're ok.
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