Morticiaa, Lyle was innocent. But so are you.
It's only recently that people have begun to be able to accept that some people pose as (step)parents in order to have unfettered access to their victims. The odds are very good that no one would have believed you if you had spoken up in the '80s. If you had screamed, you probably would have been sent away to juvie or worse. Your job at that time was to keep yourself alive and as safe as you could. You thought it was safer to say nothing. You made the best decision you could have with the information you had. In fact, we don't know that it wasn't the best decision.
Even if you had reported his actions, Lyle was his biological child. Even today, people who abuse stepchildren are allowed to have their own children on a trial run, so to speak. They have to actually kill or abuse the new child before anyone even thinks of doing anything.
I hope you let go of your guilt.
I also hope that you realize that this fool tried to make you feel ashamed so he could feel like he was better than someone. He doesn't deserve to have a scapegoat take an ounce of the blame off his shoulders.
So very true.
