The following was posted and authored by the alleged murderer...and perhaps his ex had the abortion because of who the father was....
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I just found this. I wrote it about a year and a half ago when my bitch of an ex had an abortion behind my back..
March 14, 2012 at 2:28pm
I want a girl that'll chase after me,I want a girl that will never lie to me,I want a girl that will never cheat on me,I want a girl that's funny,I want a girl that has a great personality,I want a sweet and innocent girl,I want a girl that lobes me for me,I want a girl to notice me by who I am. Not my looks:/I want a girl who would do anything for me, give up anything for me, please me until I'm pleased,I want a girl that would run to me after being away for awhile and just jump up and hug me and tell me that she loves me and she missed me,I want a girl that loves being in a relationship,I want a girl that gets jealous so I'll know she cares,I want a smart girl,I want a girl that doesn't dress like a slut,I want a girl that doesn't drink or do drugs or smoke or anything. Like she's totally against it,I want a girl to try and experience stuff with me that she hasn't done with anyone else before. Like she'll actually sit and think of what to do with me that she hasn't done before,I want a girl that doesn't look for money,I want a girl who can stand up for herself because she knows whats right,I want a girl that will stick up for me anyday against anyone even if she knows she'll lose,I want a girl who is going to stick by my side through everything and will support me on everything that I do,I want a girl that will listen to what I'm saying, I want a girl that wants to be around me every second of her life cause she doesn't know what to do without me,I want a girl that would give up anyone in her life for me without having any regrets,I want a girl who loves to cuddle,I want a girl that hasn't had sex with alot of people,I want a girl that doesn't like keeping her ex boyfriends in her life, I want a girl that has girl friends. Not someone who's like "I have more guy friends then girls" I want a girl that would actually sit down and tell me whats on her mind no matter what it was,I want a girl to actually ditch her friends for me even though she knows it'll piss them off,I want a girl that understands what I mean and if she doesn't then she'll ask for me to explain,I want a girl to make me presents that came from her heart and not her pocket,I want a girl to write me notes about how much she loves me,I want a girl that will go out of her way to see me no matter how much trouble she will get in,I want a girl that will trust me on everything I say and never doubt me no matter what it is,I want a girl that will always feel safe around me even if were in complete danger,I want a girl that will say the things she loves about me out of no where,I want a girl that won't want anyone to touch her except me cause I'm the only one she wants to touch,I want a girl that will take care of me when I'm hurt or stressed or depressed or something,I want a girl that's cute. Not hot.I want a girl that wouldn't leave me no matter what. No matter what happened. No matter who said what. No matter what. I would want a girl that wants to spend the rest of their life with me and actually mean it and do it. Not just say it cause you got caught up in the moment.
This honestly would be the best girl in the world for anyone. I would sweep any girl off their feet if I met someone like this. Just thinking of that girl that actually is like this... Man... Whoever she's with... That is the luckiest guy in the world. I hope I find that special someone for me. I've played the field and I've been in long relationships. And my opinion... I love being in a relationship. Sure it's cool to not have any rules or anything. But when your with that someone... You know their there for you no matter what. You know that you'll always have someone to go to at all times. It's the best feeling ever to me. Cause not alot of people do have that. Like right now... I don't have that. I miss it more then ever. But hey... That's life. I'll find that someone again someday. Might not be soon.. But I will eventually.. "