Mom Accused Of Letting Son Drown Because She Hated Him

[Squidlips]

I am glad I found this thread. There are some lovely women on here that have shared their darkest most frightening moments with sympathy and understanding. PPD is very real and the need to educate people very obvious. Thank you for allowing us into your personal hell, hopefully it will make the difference on people getting help or watching others and recognizing the signs. With support and education many a tragedy can be prevented. Seems the trend on here currently (forums are cyclical in nature) is to mock and dismiss any attempt to understand how these heart breaking things occur.

 

[China]

I was a mess after I had a stillborn, and then got pregnant right after and that was a tubal, I tried right away and have my now 5 yr old, but if I could go back, I would have waited, pregnancy changes so many things on us women, mentally and physically.

After I had my 3rd I wasn't what you call *depressed* i wasn't asleep all the time, I didn't cry or rage, I had irrational fears, like if i heard any little noise at night I would panic and think someone was getting in the house to harm my kids. It was so bad that for a while I wouldn't go anywhere with my hubby if it was just the 2 of us in case there was an accident and something happened at least one of us would be here to take care of the kids, I had insomnia for months, until I saw my chiro and started taking supplements, man I was a mess,

I don't know what i would have done if i'd had any worse symptoms, I didn't want to admit I felt scared.

 

[beans]

@Squidlips, after the birth of my son, I had weird episodes. Like frantically searching for the oranges I bought, and after a couple weeks I found them , in the freezer, in plain sight. Or forgetting the names of household objects. I also was terribly sad. I think that its uncommon for a woman to have PPD, but when it happens, it happens big, and the warnings are there, its the family that chooses to ignore it. With dire consequences.

 

[Sugar Cookie]

Ishan Patel

 

[zzouy]

I must also give thanks for the sharing in this thread. I preach the “you shouldn’t be ashamed” talk, but keep any negative “bad mom” thoughts to myself. Like I keep my history of alcoholism to myself. Been sober since 2011 but I’m so afraid if people knew they wouldn’t trust me, or if I’m struggling they’ll just look at me and be like “are you drinking again? Are you sure? When you’re ready to be truthful…”

I’m prone to panic attacks and bouts of depression. Gave in after my son was born and saw behavior heath dr. Now I take ADHD and depression meds. Really helps a lot. For some reason having my son put my depression, anxiety, and ADHD on 11. I couldn’t keep track of anything, felt cracked out, couldn’t sleep. I was so scared of what would happen to me if I admitted how much I was struggling.